Perfectly Imperfect Mother

My mom passed on six years ago. Each Mother’s Day, I think of her, of course, and ever so often I talk to her. I allow myself to feel good about the relationship we had, and I also realize that there were more lessons we could have learned. I know that she loved me with an unwavering affection, no matter what, even when I was less than patient with her. Mother love can be like no other: forgiving and enduring, even when there are fights or misunderstandings. However, when we are in the middle of a conflict, it can seem like it just can’t be resolved.

It is normal and natural that parents and children push each others buttons. We trigger each others disowned parts or shadows. Those issues are an invitation to become more whole within our own being and to create a more loving and accepting relationship with each other.

What is often in the way of truly loving our parents is that we have unrealistic expectations of them. Instead of accepting them the way they are, we want picture perfect parents. According to that picture, our mother is supposed to be always there to support us, always listening and empathizing perfectly. She is supposed to have the answers and be the wiser one to guide us. We want to admire her and look up to her. She is supposed to have it all figured out.

And sometimes mothers manage to do some of that but what if they are also just human like we are? What if sometimes they are as lost as we are? What if they don’t always act in a way that we admire? What if they also battle fears and limiting beliefs about themselves and the world? What if they trigger strong emotions for us and we don’t always bring the best out in each other?

If the relationship is challenging, we can conclude that it is just not worth bothering or too frustrating to deal with. Or we can ask ourselves, what relationship do I want to have with my mother, and what does it take to get there? Who do I need to be in order to have a healthy, satisfying relationship with her, in which my needs and values are respected?

Louise Hay suggests that you ask yourself what kind of relationship you would like to have with your mother and to put that into affirmative statement form, and start declaring it for yourself. Start opening up to the possibility to create the best relationship possible. Ask yourself what your needs are in this relationship. There will be some needs which are non-negotiable and a must in the interactions, and others that you are willing to have met elsewhere.

Decide what it is you need. She may not approve of how you live your life, but it is not necessary to make her wrong. All you need to know is that you approve of your life choices. You are an adult and if you meet her as an adult that approves of him or herself, she might surprise you.

Lead with vulnerability and let her know that you want a loving, successful relationship with her. Be very specific about how you want to show up in this relationship without trying to change or control her. Share your needs and boundaries in a loving way. Simply let her know how much it means to you to meet her from heart to heart.

Some subconscious belief changes which might help you in meeting your mom eye-to-eye are

  1. I have reasonable expectations of my mother as another human being.
  2. I allow her to be perfectly imperfect.
  3. I accept my mother the way she is.
  4. I view her with eyes of kindness and understanding.
  5. I show up as the best me in this relationship.
  6. I approve of myself and my choices.
  7. I am free of any need for approval.
  8. I embrace the best relationship that is possible with her.

 

If you would like to improve any relationship or change some subconscious beliefs, using techniques like PSYCH-K® or Shadow Energetics, contact me for a free phone consultation

Angelika

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Wabi Sabi Love

“You seem to have it all so together,” somebody said to me last week. Interesting perception, I thought, because I certainly don’t. “You seem to have such a close relationship with your children while other people struggle with their teenagers, and you have such nice family traditions, and in general such positive relationships and your business is going so well. How do you do that?” she continued.

Ever since that conversation, I have been puzzled as to why somebody might have that perception. Are all relationships in my life perfect? Of course not. Some relationships can certainly still be improved. And those that are healthy and loving relationships are the result of years and years of work. Relationships want to be built and then maintained by spending quality time together and having open and honest conversations. I had to examine how my parents parented and change what didn’t work for me.

The second thing which probably creates the impression that everything is rosy is that I usually choose to focus on the positive. In every given moment, we have the choice to focus on everything that is not perfect or unsatisfactory, or we can choose to love what is. Do my daughters and I have disagreements? Of course. We talk about it, we express our feelings and move on. Is my father the perfect father and grandfather? Of course not, but he loves us in the way he can. Does my partner always do what I would like him to do? Of course not. In fact, he does many things I would do completely differently. I could constantly focus on what I don’t like, or I can choose to focus on what I do like. It is after all not my job to change him or any other family member! It is my job to love the people in my life the way they are.

Arielle Ford describes in her book Wabi Sabi Love how to accept, embrace and love imperfection: your own and your partner’s. She shows that how we choose to see things informs the way they appear for us: “The human mind can be a fault-finding machine uniquely equipped to focus with laserlike precision on the few things that are lacking, rather than on the bigger picture of all that we have in abundance.” (Arielle Ford)

Wabi Sabi - vase

She teaches in her book to love and value imperfection, based on an Ancient tradition called Wabi Sabi. In the world of Wabi Sabi, a broken vase with a crack, for example, is way more valuable than it was when it was not cracked.

Arielle Ford relates this ancient art form to love and to our relationships. Wabi Sabi love is grounded in acceptance. “It’s the practice of accepting the flaws, imperfections, and limitations—as well as the gifts and the blessings—that form your shared history as a couple.” (Arielle Ford)

In chapter 3, Arielle Ford describes a man who used to be challenged with accepting the emotional and mental state of his partner. The husband worked from home and the wife in a busy office. Frequently, she would come home in a tizzy, stressed out, tired, grumpy and in need for some TLC. Her husband’s righteous reply used to be, “didn’t you meditate today?” At that point, she would get even more angry and they would end up in a fight.

What was really going on underneath? He couldn’t stand her upset energy and tried to fix her rather than embracing her, accepting her present state of mind and allowing her to find her own centre. They learned to handle this situation differently with Wabi Sabi Love. Instead of making his wife feel inadequate, the husband now understands that she just wants to be heard. If he reverts back to the lecturing voice that wants to point out the stress-reductive effects of meditations, she does not get more upset like she used to. They now have a code to signal to each other that old ineffective behaviours have surfaced.

Wabi Sabi Love means “exploring, embracing, and actually falling in love with the cracks in each other and ourselves.” (Arielle Ford) It’s not an easy practice. I certainly need my reminders to love more and more the Wabi Sabi kind of way but I invite you to try this: Start loving your own imperfections and mistakes and apply the same to the people in your life. Love yourself with all your emotions and challenges. Love your partner, your children and your parents for who (s)he is/are and not for who you hope (s)he will be one day.

Wabi Sabi Love - there is a crack

The comment which was made to me also brought up another interesting question for me. In how far do we—especially as women—hold back from showing our happiness and success to others? How often do we pretend to be smaller than we are so that other people don’t feel jealous or envious or bad about themselves? How often do we use complaining to bond with other women because we focus on perfection instead of loving life’s imperfections?

Do we serve anybody by making ourselves smaller and less happy? We neither serve ourselves, nor others. Instead, we influence our own experience. We are willing to feel less satisfied and happy in a given moment to commiserate with somebody else. We choose to feel like a victim rather than like a manifestor of our reality. We are also not encouraging others to shine their full light brightly.

Wabi Sabi Love - M. Williamson quote

Don’t be afraid to be happy and shine your light. What other people think cannot change how you feel unless you allow it to. Choose your friends wisely but remember no jealousy or envy can affect you if you come from a loving heart wishing the best for everybody.

“Because others cannot vibrate in your experience, they cannot affect the outcome of your experience. They can hold their opinions, but unless their opinion affects your opinion, their opinion matters not at all. A million people could be pushing against you, and it would not negatively affect you unless you push back. They are affecting what happens in their experience. They are affecting their point of attraction—but it does not affect you unless you push against them.”

—Abraham

I know an amazing woman who is conscious, beautiful and smart. She has done her own work and has found the perfect man. He is patient, sensitive and in tune with her. He treats her with loving respect and has a lot in common with her. They have the same values and goals in life. They can openly talk about everything and he understands. He is in many ways the proverbial knight in shining armour. She has done lots of consciousness work and deserves this amazing relationship like nobody else I know. Yet, other women are looking at her happiness and are saying, “Yes, he is a great guy but he is younger than you…” This man is the dream come true in so many ways that the age difference is the only “flaw” they can find to criticize. Why can they not just be happy for her? Is there a part in us that struggles to allow others to be completely happy or successful?

Can we truly be happy for a girlfriend who has great success in business or is just getting married to an amazing man? Can we be truly happy for our sister who has improved her relationship with her children and is getting a promotion at work? Or do we allow those successes of others to trigger our own insecurities?

EVERYBODY struggles with something! There is no person on this planet who has it all together. How can we support each other to focus more on the good and to step into our own power? Instead of being happy to see another woman fail, let’s be happy for each other when we have succeeded at something. There is enough abundance, love and happiness around for everybody to have.

Spread Your Good Energy

Angelika

Relationship Coaching
905-286-9466

greendoorrelaxation@yahoo.ca

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